Today.
There’s a haze and no halo around my future now.
The sun beats its rays through my bedroom window
And I turn away from the waiting world.
I need another moment or two
Before I let it in.
Up, I swing my legs against my bed’s wooden frame
Down, my heart flutters away,
Flees my retreating form.
I don’t want to get up,
But what choice do I have?
Into the bath
Away from the world
A moment or two to myself
Hot is the water
Cold are your words
Forever reverberating in my mind.
Cold is my body.
Alone.
Unloved.
Untouched
By you.
Dare I emerge once again
Into the waiting world…
Do my own legs
Even wish
To hold me?
Wipe
Away the steam.
Only to find
Two marbles
Where life used to be.
Two eyeless dots
Who have no idea
what to do
With the world at hand.
They don’t want it.
They don’t need it
All they had, wanted, and needed
Ran down the drain.
And my heart continues to wash away
Like layers of sand escaping the shore
And my mind floats away with the ocean
Then drowns at the bottom floor.
As I look across to the sunset,
A sense of calm falls on everything but me
So I,
I give a sigh
And curse the sky
The sky for mocking me.
And down, beats the night.
Up reach the stars…
Up, my eyes fly to make a wish.
I want it.
I know it.
I need it
Again.